| Tengo el corazón pesado | I have a heart heavy (heavy heart does not flow into the next line: what is important is: 'I have a heart HEAVY WITH, the heavy and with go together)
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| con tantas cosas que conozco, | with the many things I know
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| es como si llevara piedras | it's as if I were carrying stones
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| desmesuradas en un saco, | of unmeasureable weight in a sack,
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| o la lluvia hubiera caído, | or if the rain had fallen
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| sin descansar, en mi memoria. | without rest, in my memory.
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| No me pregunten por aquello. | Don't ask me about that.
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| No sé de lo que están hablando. | I don't know what they're talking about.
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| No supe yo lo que pasó. | I couldn't figure out what happened.
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| Los otros tampoco sabían | The others didn't know either
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| y así anduve de niebla en niebla | and in this way I walked from fog into fog
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| pensando que nada pasaba, | thinking that nothing was happening
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| buscando frutas en las calles, | looking for fruit in the streets,
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| pensamientos en las praderas | thoughts in the meadows
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| y el resultado es el siguiente: | and the result is the following:
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| que todos tenían razón | that everyone was right
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| y yo dormía mientras tanto. | and I was asleep meanwhile.
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| Por eso agreguen a mi pecho | So piled onto my chest were
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| no sólo piedras sino sombra, | not only stones, but shadow
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| no sólo sombra sino sangre. | not only shadow, but blood.
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| Así son las cosas, muchacho, | This is how things are, man, ("boy" makes it sound condescending)
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| y así también no son las cosas, | and this also is how things are not
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| porque, a pesar de todo, vivo, | because, despite everything, I live,
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| y mi salud es excelente, | and my health is excellent
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| me crecen el alma y las uñas, | My soul and fingernails grow,
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| ando por las peluquerías, | I pass by the barbershops,
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| voy y vengo de las fronteras, | I go and come from the borders,
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| reclamo y marco posiciones, | I reclaim and mark positions,
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| pero si quieren saber más | but if you want to know more,
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| se confunden mis derroteros | my routes are confused (routes has the connotation of not necessarily traveled)
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| y si oyen ladrar la tristeza | and if the bark of sadness was heard (ladrar means to bark)
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| cerca de mi casa, es mentira: | near my house, it's a lie:
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| el tiempo claro es el amor, | lucid time is love,
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| el tiempo perdido es el llanto. | lost time is weeping.
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| Así, pues, de lo que recuerdo | As such, well, of what I remember
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| y de lo que no tengo memoria, | and of what I have no memory,
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| de lo que sé y de lo que supe, | of what I know and what I knew
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| de lo que perdí en el camino | of what I lost on the way
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| entre tantas cosas perdidas, | among so many lost things,
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| de los muertos que no me oyeron | of the dead who didn't hear me
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| y que tal vez quisieron verme, | and who might have wanted to see me,
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| mejor no me pregunten nada: | it's better that they don't ask me anything:
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| toquen aquí, sobre el chaleco, | touch here, on the vest,
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| y verán cómo me palpita | and you will see how within me beats
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| un saco de piedras oscuras. | a sack of dark stones.
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