I found the avatar project helped motivate me to read further into assigned texts and do outside research so as to remain true to my character. I had to constantly check myself to make sure I was not inserting myself too much into the writing. Additionally, my outside positionality was revealed multiple times as I kept neglecting to address certain aspects of my life that surely would be changing (like what would be the temporary ”safe” job I would obtain after leaving the riskier position). These events wouldn’t necessarily be studied in a history class, as they are individual large life changes versus one shared common experience. But, looking at history on a personal level made me consider not only broad historical trends but all of the small ways the regime would have impacted peoples’ individual lives.
I really enjoyed examining the ways in which I could explore topics we were discussing in class like revenge and reconciliation through my characters’ lens and sometimes felt I had to react in ways I personally would not have agreed with given my character’s position. But, at the same time I found it impossible to take certain positions vastly different from my own and my character had an awful lot of perspective/ foresight (Certainly influenced by my own insights-sometimes it’s hard to separate yourself completely). I really loved the project and wish I had more time to spend developing the character and supplementing my posts with additional historical context/ working on developing some of the other characters but I tried my best to remain true to the voice I represented. (I also really enjoyed reading others posts!)